50 Negative Depressive Thoughts I Once Had
Discover relatable thoughts about Depression in my latest blog post! Here are 50 thoughts I had when I was depressed that you might be able to relate to.
Trigger Warning: This post will include mentions of suicide, self-harm, and mental health. This post may be triggering to some. Please continue at your discretion.
Note: I am not a mental health professional. The information presented in this article should not be used for self-diagnosis or to replace a medical diagnosis from a mental health professional or your primary care physician. The following information is for educational purposes only.
If you struggle with Depression, then you know how hard it is to ignore those depressive thoughts. You’re not alone. I won’t say, “Everyone gets depressed,” but it felt like it. When I was in a depressive episode, the world seemed so grey and bleak at some point. It felt like I had nothing to look forward to, and the world always fought against me.
If you’ve read my previous open letters about Depression, anxiety, or anything else, you know how much this topic means to me. Mental Health Awareness Week educates people and breaks stigmas and misconceptions about mental health.
One of the biggest misconceptions people have when depressed is that their thoughts and feelings are invalid or wrong. As someone who suffers from Depression, I know the sense of shame, guilt, and pain that comes with thinking negatively or feeling down all the time. So, today, I’m sharing a list of all my thoughts while I was depressed and sometimes still have.
My Depressive Thoughts
- Nothing ever goes my way
- It wasn’t meant to be
- My boyfriend doesn’t love me
- Of course, I’m failing. I’m not that smart
- Why are my friends never available?
- Do my friends even like me?
- Did I deserve it?
- Why do I even keep trying? I’ll never succeed.
- GOD!
- Why am I the only one who is going through this?
- Everyone seems so happy around me. It’s gross.
- Should I sleep in?
- Who needs sleep?
- Eh, I guess I’ll do my homework/work later.
- Should I break up with my boyfriend?
- I know I’m not that pretty.
- Life is pretty meaningless.
- Would it be better if I died?
- I wonder what death feels like.
- What would happen if I disappeared? Would anyone still miss me?
- Does anyone even love me? Probably not.
- I fucking hate school.
- What am I even going to do next year?
- I don’t know what to do with my life.
- I have zero time for anything.
- I don’t know why I keep trying all the time. I’ll never get it.
- I’m the last person who deserves happiness or peace
- My life is so chaotic.
- What did I do in my past life to deserve all this pain?
- I cannot handle it anymore.
- I want to drop out of school. I hate it.
- Will my boyfriend still love me if I tell him I hate him?
- Am I sexually attractive anymore?
- Nothing can be worse than where my life is right now
- I hate my life so much
- Ugh, why is everything so bleak these days
- I wish I had someone to talk to
- No one would ever understand the pain I’m in
- I have no one to go to
- My parents don’t care for me.
- I’m just a trophy. I have no rights.
- It doesn’t matter what he says to me.
- I probably deserved it.
- Can I quit now or later?
- Is there something I’m doing right?
- Why are they looking at me so weirdly?
- Do you hate me?
- Fuck me
- I deserve the most painful death.
- Life is not worth it.
Why Am I Sharing These Depressive Thoughts?
Can you relate to any of the depressive thoughts above? If so, then you’re not alone. I’m sharing something personal because I want you to know you’re never alone. Struggling with Depression and balancing it with my academic and social life was one of the hardest things to do.
If you’re ever feeling down or having negative thoughts, I want you to know it’s okay. It’s OK to have these depressive thoughts and feelings. But you should never feel bad or guilty about how you think. It happens to the best of us.
I think most people have these thoughts once in a while. Definitely is good to know that we are not alone with such thoughts.
Hello, thanks for sharing this post. It’s really honest and something I have felt in the past. Thanks for being honest. I hope you’re doing well now! Alicia
I think this blog post will be really helpful for people who struggle with their thoughts. They may have these thoughts and be feeling like the only one. Thank you for sharing.
Lauren – bournemouthgirl.com
Some of these thoughts are relatable… Thanks for letting us know we’re not the only ones thinking about this and perhaps we can connect with one another.
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Monique,
Of course, I wish someone would have told me I was not alone when I was going through it.
This served as a somewhat disturbing check-in for me. I’m not depressed now, but I think I could be if I let go of my self-care. Thanks for sharing this.
Anneliese,
Thank you for sharing that. I’m glad that I could be of help and hopefully you can identify when you have these thoughts.
So sorry you’ve had all these thoughts. I can relate to some of them too, our mind can be our worst enemy at times.
Corinne x
Corinne,
I’m glad someone can relate. I wrote this because I know some people may have these thoughts and feel like they are alone right now, but I want them to know that they are never alone.
You are not alone. I’ve gone through some of these thoughts too. But ever since I practiced self-love and self-care- mindset and perspective have really changed. Nothing like loving, accepting, and being kind to ourselves.
Lani, Thank you for this. Sometimes it’s hard to remember that you’re not alone when you’re in a depressive state. After finding self love and starting my self-care journey, these thoughts have become more manageable to deal with.